While traveling at the speed of dark
I came upon a listener.
I spoke to her of life and things,
But just above a whisper,
For fear she would break my heart,
If all my words should miss her.
my future life was tremulous
True there was no risk
We had spent a thousand nights one day
Writing on my wrist
Forget me not, forget me soon
My thoughts of her persist
and never in my neverland
will ever be dismissed
You see you start with nothing
And the years just rumble past
You win a few & lose a few
you try to make life last
But I was farthings short and anyway
This die was all but cast
she turned to me and bid me go
I hadn't meant to see her
I'd wandered around aimlessly
My brain did not deliver
my memory gave her the right
to deny my right to be there
"What more could you require?" she said
"That life did not provide you?"
A removal of the pablum whey
Where God had tried to hide you
I very nearly choked on it
While trying to lie beside you
"That was then and then is now
Your life has seen the glory
The sputnik of the everlast
The spelling of our story
You shouldn't even stoop to ask
But I must say I'm sorry.
I have to ask you please retire
And leave me slowly molding
My world consists of lonely dreams
And I exist there boldly
I think I've gone quite mad, you see
I ask your understanding"
But I didn't want to come here
I came here by mistake
I know my future is my past
It's not too hard to take
I will even drop a lusty smile
A smile's not hard to fake
And anyway my tragedy
Is still keeping me awake
Adieu farewell adieu old friend
My wish will ever be
glad tidings flow to you and yours
I hope you will agree
you've lived too long within yourself
please set your spirit free
For life is not a season
or so the shamen say
Deliverance is optional
Pray find another way
to end your isolation
and re-live another day
But frankly I no longer care
For I'm not here to stay
As I rode into the darkness
I had to turn around
I saw her there half quaking
kneeling on the ground
arms raised in supplication
She spoke but made no sound
I stopped for I was curious
of what she had to say
Listening through waxed paper
her words just minced away
I heard her voice calling but
I had no need to stay
my wisdom was extraneous
no reason I should stay
She once had shone so brilliantly
And fubarred* up my path
But now so dark and painful
She ne'er deserved my wrath
I had passed her on the straightaway
And we both had finished last.
But in that fine sub rosa sway
That sweet dismissive siren
Had brightened up my day
*fubar is an adjective which is short for "fucked up
beyond all recognition" I have used is a verb
because it suits the situation
No comments:
Post a Comment